I'm forever blowing bubbles...

Verse 1:
I'm dreaming dreams,
I'm scheming schemes,
I'm building castles high.
They're born anew,
Their days are few,
Just like a sweet butterfly.
And as the daylight is dawning,
They come again in the morning.

Chorus:
I'm forever blowing bubbles,
Pretty bubbles in the air.
They fly so high,
Nearly reach the sky,
Then like my dreams,
They fade and die.
Fortune's always hiding,
I've looked everywhere,
I'm forever blowing bubbles,
Pretty bubbles in the air.

Verse 2:
When cattle creep,
When I'm asleep,
To lands of hope I stray.
Then at daybreak,
When I awake,
My bluebird flutters away.
Happiness new seemed so near me,
Happiness come forth and heal me.

Chorus:
I'm forever blowing bubbles,
Pretty bubbles in the air.
They fly so high,
Nearly reach the sky,
Then like my dreams,
They fade and die.
Fortune's always hiding,
I've looked everywhere,
I'm forever blowing bubbles,
Pretty bubbles in the air.

I wanna grow up once again

Saari umr hum mar mar ke ji liye,
ek pal toh ab humein jeene do, jeene do..

give me some sunshine,
give me some rain,
give me another chance,
I wanna grow up once again...

These are a few lines of the song "Give me some sunshine" from a very good and thought provoking movie 3 Idiots. Whenever I hum this song I feel like going back to college and re-live it. I guess what they say is really true that college days never come back so live it to the fullest.

Lost

Have u ever felt lost in all its complete sense.. Im feeling so nowadays.. Career wise I have no idea wat at present Im doing.. Im not good at my job.. I wanted to do something else but I cant do that too.. And frankly I dont give a fuck bout my current job.. Sometimes I think I shud quit and do nothing but then money comes into play.. Now as far as my personal life is concerned, I have a few very good frnds who care bout me a lot but I still feel lonely.. My family is the best one can ask for but still I dont care bout them as much as I shud..
Now a few mnths ago I met a girl and now we r very good frnds.. She is very happy with her boyfrnd but then I feel that somewhere Im scared that our frndship will not be as good as it used to be.. This happens in a relationship.. Nothing lasts forever.. Watching people around me and analising myself I feel that I too shud have a relationship.. And sometimes I feel I cant be someones boyfrnd.. Its too much of a pain to love someone.. I felt for someone for bout a yr but she doesnt feel nothing bout me.. I mean how cold can anyone be.. Oh forget it.. Now I think that one shud not get attached to someone that it hurts later.. I am attached to my frnds so much that I feel possesive when they hang around with their boyfrnds.. I know this is not right.. I also feel that due to me my frnd and her boyfrnd get less time to spend with each other.. I shud stop hanging out with her..

I feel too many things.. I think these things.. I have let my heart break more than a couple of times now.. Sometimes I feel like shit.. Of no importance.. Basically I dont know wat I want out of relationship or life.. I guess Im the most dumb person alive whose existence doesnt matter to anyone..

Fuck this.. Life is fucked up.. Life is full of shit.. I tell myself "Get a life dude"..

Entourage

I really love this series. It seriously rocks.. Its bout 5 guys, Vince, the making-it-big actor, E, his best friend since they were 6, Drama, VInce's not-so-successful bro n actor, Turtle, friend of Vince's from the Queens and lastly Ari, Vince's agent and the best one in the group.. There r many good things bout the series.. Everyone go by their instinct.. They dont do nothing to please anybody, just do it irrespective of the consequences and yeah also for the girls.. The one thing I really liked was the trust and how much they believe each other.. There is nothing bout anyone which others dunno.. After Friends I got to see true friendship on TV..
Acting wise I like Ari the best, then comes E.. E's character is very cool.. He is Vince's best friend n his manager.. But he doesnt manage Vince's career just for the money but coz he is like his bro.. Thats one thing I appreciate, they dont work just for the money (they may seem to using it a lot though), they do what they do coz they r friends.. No matter what the situation is, they stand by each other..

Sound of drums

Recently I watched "Rock On".. Simply brilliant.. I had a desire of playing drums one day but I guess in the rat race it faded out.. But now I again want to learn to play drums.. I enquired about the price and quality of several drums.. Cheapest ones are Indian made costing around 4 to 5K and avg ones cost around 10K.. Imported ones will cost me a whopping 30K to 50K.. I guess I am going to but the Indian ones for the time being.. Initially ill learn with those and if Im any good then Ill go for the imported ones.. Learning drums is going to take time but Im ready to devote time in something which I know Im going to enjoy doing..
There is something about the drum beats, whenever I hear them my hands think they are holding drum sticks and my mind thinks there is an imaginary drum set infornt of me.. And automatically my hands start playing on those imaginary drums.. I guess I shud give it a try.. In the worst case Ill be no good but atleast Ill come to know of one more thing Im not capable of doing.. And if I learn to play drums then it ll be one of the real achievements in my life.. I havent really achieved anything till now which I really wanted to achieve.. Strange.. People around me know what they want to do and is mostly related to their careers or higher education but I am not interested in any of those.. I just want to do what attracts me.. Of course it shudnt harm anyone else.. But in some hard times we need to pay a price..

Enough said, Im off to beat some drums..

Poem

aati hai mujhe jab yaad teri, tasveer nihara karta hoon,
raaton ko main taare gin gin kar ye waqt guzara karta hoon.

dil ke darpan mein bimbit tum, aankhon mein maun samaayi ho,
har pal, har dhadkan mein meri, tum hi tum kewal chaayi ho.

kitne umange laaye the, hum dil mein samet kar,
le jaa rahe hain haratein kafan mein lapet kar.

mohabbat maangne nikale hain ye chehre se zaahir hai,
par kisi ke saamne hum haath failaaya nahi karte.

prem hi jab paap hai to dharm kiska naam hai,
paapiyon ke prem se hi to prem badnaam hai.

nazar uthati ho toh badi rangeen lagti ho,
nazar jhukaati ho toh badi sangeen lagti ho,
ye gora rang aur uspar nazakat,
tum chahe jaisi bhi ho, badi namkeen lagti ho.

yah kaisa ittefaq hai tumhi soch lo,
hum bach gaye aag se, paani se jal gaye.

chaandni raat mein barsaat buri lagti hai,
dil mein agar dard ho toh har baat buri lagti hai.

aati hai aise pyar ki ghadiyan naseeb se,
aa is dil ki dhadkane sunle kareeb se.

museebat mein sharifon ki sharafat kam nahi hoti,
sone ke tukde kyon na ho, par keemat kam nahi hoti.

nigaahe-e-shaokh thi shayad, nigaahe-e-aakhri apni,
ki unke jaate hi, nabz-e-namanna chuut gayi apni.

hosh kho dunga, itna mat pila saakhi,
main bahek jaaunga, nazrein na mila saakhi.

dikhakar muh chipa lena, haya isko nahi kehte,
lagakar dil hata lena, wafa isko nahi kehte.

ponch kar ashk aankhon se,
muskurao toh koi baat bane,
sar jhukane se kuch nahi hota,
sar uthao toh koi baat bane.

bujha sake na agar aag, toh paani kya hai,
bahe na vaayu veg se, toh ravaani kya hai,
khatre mein dekh kar desh ko khoon na kholei,
toh usse behtar hai bhudapa, woh jawaani kya hai.

Live ur Dream

I aint happy with the wrk I am doing. Should I switch my job?? I always dreamt of wrkng for a cool company which doesnt have many rules n regulations.. A company which has cool people wrkng over some very cool ideas.. I find it very difficult to wrk for people who dont know what they r exactly doing.. Ppl here dont know how to manage a project, they just solve problems on a temp basis.. They dont look at the big picture.. Creative ideas are not encouraged here.. The atmosphere is so full of s*** that u dont feel like doing the job, let alone innovation..
Thats y I think its time for me to move on.. The company which I plan to join is really cool, as far as I have heard.. One thing which states their coolness is this quote which have written in their website, "If u have to drag urself to wrk in the morning, its time for u to move on".. Very true.. Thats what is happening with me at my present wrk place..
I guess its high time for me to "LIVE MY DREAM"..